經過中南 , 只見你在發呆 , 工作太悶?
事實就是事實 , 我沒有方法去改變 , 我只有接受 。
我遇到一個人 , 他的確很不錯 , 亦是我喜歡的類型 , 但奈何我還未認識他 , 所以我叫他$6
因為佢第一次寫張價錢既紙仔比我叫我去比錢 就只係寫$6 。
佢第一次同我講既野係『靚仔 , 唔該借借』的確呢一句係一句引人發笑既說話 , 但亦係佢真係第
一句同我講既野。 佢係旺角3樓中南工作 , 有時會扮經過上去買張紙 , 因為佢多數企係類紙果度
有一次我其怪見唔到佢 , 唸住真係買完紙就走 , 但令外個職員幫我整緊果時 , 佢特然行埋黎企左
係我右邊 , 隻手插左落個大紙筒度FING然後望住我職員整緊果張紙 就係到FING個紙筒。
不過當今日我去到中南 , 買完紙 佢望都無望就比左張價錢我 , 其實我一早就知呢種電影般愛情小
說的確唔會咁容易發生 , 我都係放棄 , 得閒望下就算。不過佢今日戴眼鏡又幾好睇。
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pDDOemeyS9c
after saw this video , i cry . i know that there are lot of peoples like me in the world. but i didn’t know that they kill himself because bullying.
i can’t imagine the life turn it to me . i start to think if i come out to my family . what will they think about me ? or what will i do in the future life ?
it’s hard to face it with peoples and say ” i’m a gay ” . sometimes i feel shame for myself. i don’t want my big sister to know , she will break her heart and also my friend . i just….i just they won’t worry about me . but is sad to be alone .
when my mum move out of my house , i just saw her twice in a month at half an hour. i think it’s nice to have a dinner with my family .but is not gonna happen . my mun just like gambling with her friends and boyfriend more than have a talk or dinner with me. i know that is so hard to raise 3 child without my dad , but , is doesn’t main you have to gambling and play “mahjong” all the time . did you care about your family ? you can’t put the money on the table and then just …walk out!!! no matter what i say , you won’t listen at all . you just said ” i’m in that age . get over with it , your mun is the person like that , you are kidding , but i know is not .
i still remember that moment on school , you just came on me and say hi.
i can’t believe you notice me in class . i like this guy , he start to flirt on me in this
few month . he start to being nice to me , call me and go out with me . but he also
lie to me . i found that he had a girl friend . actually he just want to know i’m gay
or not . also try to make fun of me . i don’t know why he did this , but after i know
all the true , i cry in the bed . in this 3 years , i have to act nothing happen to
everyone , we still a good friend , lunch together , work togther , . is so sick to do
this .so i decided stick with another friend , sometimes i really want to hit on his
face and say ”fuck you , asshole , you lie bitch.”
Sometimes , i have no idea what i am doing .
even , i know i was gay , but i don’t know ho to deal with this.
how can i come out to my family ?
What should i say? ……
it will get better?
